It's Coming!

I know that it has been away, but I am sure everyone knows that once school starts it is hard to do something that is not school or work related.

Wooooo! So the losing weight thing is going really well, minus one small set back. I feel so good about it all, especially after today. I have been of course having issue with choosing working out over school work, but today was the final stop to that one. I have to work out everyday now even if it kills me. I was feeling so good about losing weight and then BAM, I was not able to work out for a few days and ate really bad and put on some weight that I had just lost. So now I have to work extra hard to get it back off plus some. But all is well!

Today was a great day. 50 mins of working out, plus a nice dinner with a little dessert. Now I am set to finish this week off strong. I have decided that I need to do more than just my video which I plan on taking care of as of today.

Well here is to the next couple of days!!!!!!!

Day #2 of the New Workout

So today I did my new workout for the second time. Uhhhhhhhhhhhh my body is feeling it right now. I tried to do wii fit after and could hardly stand. But it is a good kind of ouch. LOL.

My eating is under way also. I did good on dinner and did not use the fact that I had worked out as an excuse to eat more. I ate what I was suppose to and then I was done. Had my glass of V8 juice and am now set for the night. I had a little little dessert, really small bite size and it hit the spot. So now I can move along, get ready for bed and start tomorrow.

I am actually starting to get really excited about working out. I get off work and when I get home I don't come up with reasons why I can not work out. Hopefully I can continue this way for the rest of the year.

As I sit back and think about it, I can honestly say that it really is not about the money anymore, its about the person that I want to be. I am the biggest I have ever been and it scares me. The money is a plus, but to be honest I just want to be healthy and feel good about my body. I am not all there when I don't feel good about myself and that takes away from Danny. I want to be there for him to but when I am down I can not.

I look at everyday as a new, but a continue. I know that I am strong enough to have discipline in myself to lose the weight that I want.

So here is to the new and out with the old.

So here to it!!!!!!

Okay, so today was a bit of a turning point for me. I did a little looking around, and a bit of thinking. As a reflect on the past week I seem to be very ashamed of myself and very disappointed. I was suppose to start this week and hard core work out, start with the losing the weight. But once again I failed at it. Came up with excuses, did the bear minimum of what I was suppose to do. Well that is all going to end today.

We got Wii Fit which came with a free Jillian M. Wii game. That lady is intense even on her games. So I looked her up and found this awesome video of her. Thanks to Mila to who I saw had tried here which made me want to look into her even more. She makes a good point in once of her workouts. She says that she has 400 lb people that can do a jumping jack, I should to, to stop looking for the easy way out and push yourself to do it. If you want the body you have to work, it is not just going to come to you. She is right, I am not going to just wake up one morning and have this awesome body that fits into my jeans and clothes.

So it begins tomorrow morning. A have a goal for the week to reach and I have new ways of reaching it. I am actually getting really excited it all. The eating right!!!!!! Just bought a food processor so that I can make hummus and shred chicken for chicken salads. MMMMMMMMM can't wait to start making healthy food for my lunches and dinners. Not to mention I will be able to get home this semester at a decent hour in order to actually make food.

On top of the new stuff I got, I have been thinking about the new semester. I will actually have time to go salsa with Danny. Which case is not only going to help me learn and be able to dance with Danny but also will help in the working out process. Plus I will have time to actually work out during the week.

Well sleep is in order and the new week starts when the eyes are awoken.

The struggle has begun!

So the first struggle has begun =(. I want to win this bet so bad! I wont to lose weight so bad. I want to be healthy, feel comfortable in my cloths/body. I want to feel good about myself. I have officially found a huge reason why I keep failing or having a hard time with this losing weight. I see myself as the same, no results. But I have to keep telling myself that the results don't happen over night. That I need to work out and eat right over a period before the results of the slimming down will be seen. I am so disgusted with my body, which would make me want to lose the weight more, well that isn't happening. I feel like what I am doing by working out and eating right is not working so I say what the heck let me just eat whatever (emotional eating (EVIL)). I must over come this part if I am going to continue on with this bet and losing weight.

On the other hand today was pretty good. Not happy with my action but I didn't just sit on my butt. Eat good today was really proud, I did not eat all the food in my lunch kit. Also for dinner we had these pizza things, they were actually healthy but I only had two small slices and an apple that is it. I wanted to eat more, I was hunger, but I said nope thats just fat added to your body. I then did wii shape and this ab exercise. I feel pretty good, could have done better.

Tomorrow is a new day! Will be hitting the gym first thing for a 30 min run!

Wooooooooooo THE BET IS ON!!!!!!!!

What a year! So I have come to the conclusion that making new years resolutions are not smart. I mean yeah everyone does them but half way through the first two months they go out the window! So I have decided that I want to set a goal!

Of course in the last 6 months I have been having this internal battle with my self in losing weight. Well it didn't work, ha, I think I actually gained weight =(.

So me and two of my other friends came up with a bet (I think I mentioned in a blog before). So anyways it has officially started. Eating right, working out, its all in full swing. I am not much with words and things like that but I will blog about my progress.

Today was day one:

I am looking at 199lbs right now. Makes me so disappointed in myself. My officially weigh in day is Friday.

The eating thing is under way. Healthy and good at that!

Hope tomorrow feels as good as today was!

The Holidays!

The one thing I hate most about trying to lose weight and stay healthy is the holidays. Parties, family get togethers, there is always food there, and not the healthy the kind. I have been trying to just watch how much I eat, but when the food is so good and your standing around it for hours its hard. Fail on my part now like 4 times, and there is more to go.

I am really excited about New Years, thats when Katie, Mila, and I start this bet. We are all going to put in $50=$150. Whoever can lose the most % weight will get the money. I know that its not about the money, that it is about getting healthy and in shape, but $150 can help me! I am going to set a plan and I have more time this coming semester, I hope. I get done every day at 4 except for Tuesdays. So I am hoping to just go straight to the gym on those days. I really would like to get up early and do it but with opening the daycare I just dont have time.

Well thats it for now. My goal for this semester was not met and I am very ashamed because I could have done it. Heres to the New Year in hopes that I can put it off. New goals to come....

Trying

Why is it that during finals and the holidays it is so hard to find time to go to the stupid gym. Being stress does not help either, wanting to eat while being stressed. Ahhhhhhhhhh that is how I feel! Okay so I found out that my aunt and cousin made a bet about who can lose the most weight, and guess what? Well the bet is working cuz both of them are losing weight and looking very good.

I just feel like I am back to square one. That this diet is not working. That I am not losing weight. And I know it should not be about losing the weight and that it should be about being healthy but I guess it is hard for me to look at it that way. I want to be able to feel good when I wear certain outfits. I am sick of going shopping because I need pants and leaving the store without cuz I get depressed about the sizes of the pants I am trying on, or the fact that they do not look good on me. What to do, What to do?

I am hoping that I can get a plan in place, something that I can stick to. Who knows? I have to get the will, the motivation to do this. I need to tell myself everyday this is what I need to do, it is the right thing.

Well we will see what happens in the coming days. I have to take everyday one day at a time right now.